Alhamdulillah :)

Today is the 29 th of December 2009 ... I am at the office - nak gi Public Bank jap ; padehal cuti sampai New year :P yelah daripada dtg sorang sorang later, baik lah ikut Husband gi keje sekali ... hehehe

Alhamdulillah, the stay at the hospital was not THAT bad ... Eventhough every 2 hours, a tube of my blood would be taken for the test :( At the end, it was 8 tubes all together ... felt like a 'raisin' - dried & crinkled :P The food was VERY bad ... I have stayed in a few hospitals before this, but this one took the cake ... Horrible ... I can lose weight here easily ... The room was great, love it - felt like I was staying in a hotel hehehe ... but I still cannot sleep at night - I stayed awake till 4.30 a.m, staring at the tv - it was Xmas Eve so they were showing Dr Doolittle 2, Tortured on Star Movies ... At 4.45 a.m, a nurse came into the room to take the thermos for hot water ... 6.00 a.m the breakfast came ... 6.30 a.m the last tube of blood was taken ... and 9.30 a.m my Husband came to visit :) ... I was discharged at 2:00 p.m Yippee ... no diabetes ... :)

Thank you to all those who prayed for me & wishes me well :) Only Allah can re-pay your kindness :)

Fire Drill ...

Today kat opis ada fire drill ... nasib baik lah dah dgr rumours 2-3 hari lepas + smlm bertembung ngan 'fire warden' Tkt 20 yg kena pi briefing ... hehehe :) So, hari ni tadi from 10:20 a.m dah siap turun dok kat lobby huhuhu ... Sorry lah, makcik tak sanggup nak turun tangga dari Tkt 20 ... mintak mahap ... kang tak pasal pasal budak nih terkuar awal lak kang ...

Tunggu punya tunggu, dlm pukul 11:30 a.m baru depa announce fire drill ... then, bila kumpul kat luar bangunan tu, ada ka patut makcik mengandung ni jugaklah the sole survivor / representative of Tkt 20 ... dgn warden sekali cabut lari lah ... huhuhu kes haru biru tol ... Anyway, hopefully for the next fire drill pon ada org boleh bagi tahu awal awal ... kesian my friend, Yati yg mengandung 7 bulan gak kena turun tangga dari Tkt 9 ... ishk ishk ishk ...

Tomorrow I will be admitted into the ward ... nervous / suspense / cuak semua ada ... Hopefully things would be ok ... Pray for me ... Till then, have a good life :)

Trip to Melaka - Lina's wedding :)

Last friday we went back to Melaka - it was my cousin's wedding ... Cik Thamby's second daughter ( Lina ) was getting married ... We went back with Along & Sha ... reached Melaka around 8:00 pm ... Mak was waiting for us to have dinner together :) She was excited to see my growing tummy ... with cucu girl on the way huh?

The next day, it was my wedding anniversary ( 5th year ) ... I am so thankful to God for blessing me with 5 wonderful years & many more, Insyaallah :) ... Early in the morning, Along & Sha went to look for breakfast ... it was nasi lemak & soto from Mak's favourite stall ... After that, Along sent Mak & Win to 'Pantai' first ... 'Pantai' is the term we use to refer to Abah's village near the sea ( Kg Baru ) ... Around 11:30 a.m, we went to Pantai too ... the guests have arrived & started eating ... Yupp, as early as 11:30 am for lunch ... It was raining quite heavily ... to add to our misery, there was a live band ... Unfortunately, the band was not that 'entertaining' ... they were playing other songs - not related to wedding at all ... some songs were so inappropriate that left me wondering whether they are actually the bride's worst enemy or something ????? We stayed till 4.00 pm or so ... The food was good, the bride was pretty but the band stays *@%$@!

Later that night, we went back to KL ... on the way back we had satay 'tembusu' at Kajang ... hehehe a late celebration for our anniversary :) There were some bazaar going on there as well, so me & Sha bought ourselves a shawl each heheheh ...

Till then :)

I see *pink* ;)

Hehehe ... so it is official - it is going to be a girl ... :) Taupe is going to have a sister to play with, to share her love for anything pink & bling bling ...huhuhuhu ... Oyen is going to have a hard time keeping up with them ... Taupe sorang pun dia dah pening kepala, selalu jer lari kat Baba & Mama mintak tolong ... abislah Oyen ...hikhikhik

Baby is doing fine, but I may not be so fine ... The glucose tolerance test was a bit worrying as the level of sugar in my blood after 2 hours of the test was 7.9 ... Due to that, I would be admitted on the 24th Dec for observation ... suspen wooo ... dah la doktor tu asyik sebut pasal insulin shot lah , itulah , inilah ... uwaaaa ..... Ditambah pulak bila dah abis jumpa doktor, depa kata kena injection lak - ATT shot ( anti-tetanus / anti kancing gigi ) ... sakit woo - inject kat tangan kiri yg sama kena amek darah 3 tiub sebelum tuh ... Rasa kebas / nak cabut tangan - ganti ngan robotic device jer rasanyer ... And I thought that would be the end of the misery ... noooo ... today, I am having a fever due to the shot I guess - uwaaaaa ..... Baby, you better be good to me - I have to endure a lot of pain & misery for you ... :P * reminder - Maklong, once in a while ingatkan budak kecik nih ye so that dia tak lupa diri bila besaq nanti *

Anyway, in the mean time ... do pray for me & may all be blessed with a happy life :)

The suspense :p

Today is Friday, 11 Decemeber 2009 ... another 3 days for the next check-up at HUKM + the glucose tolerance test ... Then, in another 8 days, it is going to be my 5th year wedding anniversary :) ... This year we are going to celebrate it with this little person in my tummy ... huhuhu ...

How do I feel lately? - like a pin-cushion :P I am all round with pins sticking out everywhere ... hehehe ... the toss & turning at night continues, the stomach cramps are here to stay ( can you imagine the tummy having cramps - it is like the baby is stretching your tummy to the max, no more spaces to be stretched kinda thing ) and I am always hungry ... much to the dismay of my husband :p But hey, it is kinda rewarding especially when this little person 'interact' with you at times that you least expected ... for example, the last time I went to Giant hypermart to do some grocery shopping, I saw this cute little 'onesies' / romper & thinking that I should 'stock-up' on things for the baby, I thought of buying it. I put the cute little thingy into the basket, but then my husband asked me to put it back on the rack, saying that it is still too early to buy things for the baby. Despite my objection+'muncung', I reluctantly put it back on the rack. Immediately, the little person kicked me pretty hard. I said out loud, "Don't kick me, kick your Dad. He's the one who refused to buy it!". Much to my delight, this little person stopped immediately. LOL Cute eh? See, now I have a side-kick :D While he/she is still inside of me, I am never alone ... :)

I am still at work at the moment ... Thinking of taking a 4 days leave starting from Christmas to New Year :) which leaves me only 1 day to bring forward for next year's annual leaves ... No worries, I would have 60 days of maternity leaves once this little person leaves my body :P

Till then, pray for me & have a great life everyone :)

Mysterious individual ....

I must say this small person in my tummy is one cheeky individual ... being active like most of the time ( day & night ), during the scan this person sits very still, blocking the doctor's view with his/her backside ... can only see the back of the thigh & the butt ... so, the question remains unanswered ...

Guess we just have to wait then ... hmmm the mystery remains ...

But, in general the baby is doing great ... Everything seems ok, the doctor said most likely I can deliver normally :) The next appointment is on 14 December 2009 - which I have got to go through the glucose test & stuffs. I have got to fast the night before - no food after 12:00 a.m ... Pray for me & the baby ...

Take care Yasmin & Syafiq Afifi :) Thanks for the vote ... eventhough the result is still pending ... hehehe

Boy or Girl?

In two days time, the gender of the baby will be confirmed ... yeay ... 12 November 2009, 4.00 p.m at HUKM Specialist Centre ...

I don't really mind but the father of the child is hoping / praying for a boy ... hehehe ... As long as the baby is healthy and happy, I am ok with that :)

So, folks - cast your vote now ... boy or girl? I will announce the result on Thursday evening then ...

Till then ... have a good life :)

Of being 5 months pregnant :p

Yupp ... I am 5 months pregnant ... heavier, bigger and 'sorer' :p ... The cramps have started, it is a GREAT effort to get up once I am sitting down on the floor or lying on the 'toto' watching tv, more frequent visits to the ladies, yet the good thing is the 'morning sickness' ( in my case 'evening sickness') is almost gone for good ... except yesterday, in the name of an experiment - I tried chicken & it almost come out ... not in a pleasant way ...

Anyway, the baby is getting more active, which according to my Mom, is a good thing. Loves oranges and veggies ever more now ...

Still extremely busy, eventhough TCE 3 classes are done with their class events/projects. Now, I am conducting mock job interviews for TCE 3 and public speaking for TCE 1. Another 2 weeks to go before the final exam. The exam invigilation schedule is not out yet ... as usual, it would be a last minute thingy ... Whatever it is, I am due for another scan at HUKM specialist centre on 12 th November ... Had informed the office, so they better be aware.

Will write soon - hopefully. Till then, have a good life.

August is here ... :)

Have not been updating ... Had a very busy time preparing for classes of TCE3 and TCE1, debate club and of course, adjusting to my new found 'body' & ' appetite' ...

Went to have an 'eat out' session with Along & Sha last Thursday, hehehe baby's first eat out with PakLong & MakLong ... Had a seafood fried rice for main course, cranberry cranberry for drinks ( yupp, that's the name ) and mango with sticky rice for dessert ... Usually, we would be having deep-fried siakap with soya sauce + cili padi but since I cannot even smell fish, it had to be postponed for the time being ... Uwaaa ...

The debate club, on the other hand, is developing / growing / blossoming into a great one. Last weekend, the 2 teams participated in Taylor's Intervarsity Debate Tournament ... They did not win anything, yet the experience itself is a prize in its own way... I am so proud of my 'kids' ...

Had a terrible weekend, starting from Friday when the nausea came back ... Saturday & Sunday spent in despair ... Spinning head, lots and lots of gas and of course, the vomitting ...

Hopefully the coming days would be better ...

Till then ...

Of being misunderstood ...

Been there, done that ... decided not to be bothered by it anymore ... thus a peaceful life I gained. Unfortunately in this world, life is NOT a bed of roses ... It is the survival of the fittest, the weaklings are left to mend for themselves and most would succumb to the 'injuries'.

I am saying this because I see that some people are still in their own 'bubble' thinking that the world evolves around them, and not the other way around. They thought that if they make themselves believed that their world is 'fine' so everything is bright & merry. They are the ones who feel they are better than the rest, if you do not belong to their 'group', you are an outcast ... They would only look your way when they want YOU to do something FOR THEM. You are merely a 'servant' who lives to serve & worship them. They have the rights to scold you, to call you names and to do as they please. They have the rights to hurt you but expect you to still respect them & run to them whenever they call for you. If you don't, you are labelled as ingrates / blasphemy,etc ... It is fine for them to spit on your face, but you cannot even glance a hateful stare to them ... Well, you know what ... there is this saying, 'if you want to destroy my sweater, hold on to the thread, I am walking away' ... That is exactly what I am doing ...

To whom it may concerned - 'you can keep on sending those texts, but I am still ignoring you because you have hurt me too much ... Too much that I don't wish to be part of your life anymore' Anyway, try to decipher this texts - 'T, dgr cerita tak sehat, dah ok ke? Masuk pusrawi? Kalau nak apa2 let me know.' ... NO thanks, I DON'T want anything, especially from you. What do you think of me? Only when I want something, I should let you know? Like you did? Sorry, we may come from the same parents, but I do not share the attributes that you have ... I do not possessed a heart full of evil & manipulative schemes ... I do not know how to act nice in front of people but later stab them at the back ... I say things as they are ... whether you like it or not ...

And please, the last statement I wrote on the facebook before I deleted my account stands, the part where I said 'Have a good life' ... just continue with your life, you would do fine without me in them as you have those who you have chosen over your own siblings to live by ... They would take care of you & your family as I am just a mosquito who makes your life miserable by making irritating noises, or a frog living under a coconut shell who does not know what goes around in the world and the last bit where your son said that I am a dog who is barking - quote ' perangai sendiri macam anjing, ada hati nak sound / tegur orang ' ... So please, have a good life with the people YOU chose to be around you. Just leave me alone, with my own small family & friends who do not judge me. Those people accepted me as I am, unlike you.

Have a good life, PLEASE.

Only a pregnant woman knows how it feels to be pregnant

Yupp, basically I am still 'green' - due to nausea + throwing up every now & then ; and also the expression of still new at being pregnant ... But, I really do appreciate pregnant ladies MORE now ...

Other than the physical + emotional changes that we go through, we also face the heartache of not being able to be in control of our own bodies ... like we are not able to eat our favourite food because suddenly we can no longer tolerate the food, the constant trip to the ladies every now & then, not being able to stand almost any kind of smell, the fatigue, the drowsy spell, and a lot of other things as well. It can be frustrating sometimes as we cannot offer you any rationales for the things we do. It is as if an alien has taken over our bodies ...

I feel guilty whenever I give my husband a hard time ... like when I asked him to buy me 'mee goreng basah' only to discover later that I cannot even swallow it. It used to be something that I like in the past. Then, the fascination with coke & 'ice-cream soda', in the past it is quite difficult to see me drinking carbonated drink as I don't really go for it. Today, the moist chocolate + carrot cake was rejected the moment it tried to settle in my tummy. This Ekhwan Jr / Tatty Jr is one fussy little kid.

The journey to the office in the morning is another challenge that I find tiring. As sometimes, when I was about to sit in an empty seat, out of the blue come this 'kiasu' person that literally push me out of the way. And of course, the smell ... And the noise ...

I just hope that I would be ok soon ... And Jr would be co-operating nicely with me ... Do pray for me :)

8 weeks & counting ...

Yupp it has been 8 weeks now ... I am still feeling queasy but getting used to it already ... I am at work after 2 weeks of misery ...

The class started 8.30 this morning, a TCE 3 class - much to my surprise as I was supposed to teach TCE 1 ( 6 classes ) ... now I have 2 subjects to teach ... uwaaa

Anyway, yesterday went to V Mum at sunway pyramid and bought some pretty maternity dress ... No more ModernMum for me ... Have to start wearing them as the baby bump has started to show ... :p

the journey so far ...

I am afraid that I might be admitted to a hospital tomorrow. I went to see the doctor today for my excessive vomitting / unable to hold any food in my stomach condition. The doctor said that I am badly dehydrated/hypoglecemic ( if i get the spelling right ) & stuff. There is nothing much he can do for me other than writing a reference letter to get me admitted. He said that at least I would be put on IV which would make me less dehydrated.

So, after this I would be packing my stuff for a few days stay in a hospital ( Pusrawi Jln Tun Razak - most likely ). I am going to miss my Taupe & Oyen, and Emil & Remy ... Pray for Mama :)

So, till then ...

morning sickness? evening sickness? all day sickness!

Serve me right! I was fine without any kind of sickness for the past 4 weeks of pregnancy, but now all that seems like a very distant past ... Past few days, I was infected with 'evening sickness' where I feel sick after 5 pm, when everything and anything seems 'wrong', 'smelly', 'yucky' for no apparent reason which will induce me to vomit in the end ... Now I am feeling this sensation all day long ... this morning I throw up while I was bathing ... Uwaaaa ... And one of my friends said that this 'sickness' will continue till the 3rd month ... I have another 1 & 1/2 month to go ...

Sure wish I can 'transfer' this 'sickness' to someone else ... any volunteers out there ???

I am hungry most of the time, but I cannot eat - I cannot swallow to be exact ... the food will be stuck in the throat once it tasted 'different' ... I cannot stand rice, milk, fish, chicken to name a few ... I was telling my husband that perhaps the baby is a 'vegan' ... I am surviving on mangoes, bread, dry biscuits and water ( flavoured with sunquick ) ... Even the sight of above listed food will make me go crazy with nausea ...

I am currently on Elken Spirulina & Dr Xeniji supplement which are said to help during pregnancy. Let's pray it works. I just started yesterday ...

Till then ... even typing this down has started to make me feel *@#+$

2nd scan ...

I am finally at work - after 6 days of leaves ... And to my delight, I did not wear my pyjamas to work ... managed to find some 'baju kurung' & 'baju kurung-like' to go to work ... hehehe

Went to the clinic yesterday, did the 2nd scan - managed to get a glimpse of a 6 mm image which indicates that the baby is about 5 weeks old. I am due for another scan in another 3 weeks time. The doctor said that by that time, the image should be bigger & better.

I spoke too soon about not having any 'usual' pregnancy 'sickness' ... Now I can barely eat rice, no appetite at all - milk disgusts me, nothing taste good ... and the afternoon 'dizziness' ... Serve me right for bragging about being fine last few weeks.

The night visits to the toilet has become more frequent, 4:00 a.m is like a fixed schedule for me to get up & pay one last visit before the 6:00 a.m wake up call.

More to come ... soon :)

p/s Potter - thanks for the wish. Hehehe not only extra food, but also 'toy' ...

Updates ...

Today is Thursday, 2 July 2009 ... I have been at home since Monday enjoying my leaves - next Tuesday I will be going back to the office. Monday I need to go to the clinic for my appointment ( 2nd scan ).

What have I been up to ... well, first on last Saturday morning, I did a UPT (urine pregnancy test) and the result was positive. Yupp, there were the 2 lines instead of just 1. So, off to the clinic we went. The doctor confirmed it and did a scan. But nothing can be seen yet as it is still too early. He instructed us to come again after 10 days - i.e 6 july 2009. Hence, from that moment onwards, I have a little 'scanner' myself to scan all the food & drinks to see whether it is ok or not ok to be taken during pregnancy. Less physical activities & stuff ... Thank God I don't have any cravings ... yet ... or any of those 'morning sickness' ... Let's pray that it would continue till the full term.

On Tuesday night, Mummy & Daddy came to visit us along with Sha & Along. We missed them so much - the last time we saw them was after the wedding. Daddy looked strong & fit as usual while Mummy looked radiant & pretty. Had a marvellous time chit-chatting + trying to share some of the 'aura' with Sha hehehehe. Sha even tried my drink - Anmum Materna, well it tasted great anyway. I was surprised too as those drinks normally taste like some churned up paper + flour - only coloured to camouflage the terrible taste. Hmm my vote goes to Anmum Materna - chocolate flavoured hehehe.

My friend, Masnie is back in Rawang from UK. She gave me a call last Saturday, inviting us to a 'aqiqah' on Sunday. Unfortunately we cannot make it. I called her yesterday wishing her a happy birthday as 1 july is her birthday. She is planning to visit me today in BTS. Really look forward to that :D

And to those who have some maternity clothes business online, please contact me as I cannot get into my pants / skirts / baju kurung anymore ... Forget about jeans :( feel suffocated as the material press on my tummy ... I was wondering what can I wear to work next Tuesday ... still having this horror picture in my head where I go to work in my pyjamas ... hehehe ( nervous laughs )

Till next time ...

Potter's visit

My God son came to the office today to pay me a visit. He also treated my husband & me pizza as he received his bonus yesterday. Thanks Potter, that is very kind of you :)

I am so sorry to hear about Dean's demise. He will be missed ... eventhough I don't know him personally but from the photoes & stories of him, I am sure he is a great gerbil. Rest in peace Dean ...

Potter is one of those who were involved in the 'incident' recently ( the facebook incident - thus it shall be named ). I am so grateful that he is one of those who realises the importance of 'roots' - where we come from/ who 'made' us who we are today kinda stuff ... Honoured to be his God mum :) The world need more people like you Potter ...

Will be writing soon ...

confused? dazzed? amnesia?

It has been 4 days since it happened but I still cannot put a finger on it ... hence the title up there :p

Well, it happened on Saturday ( 20 June 2009 ), at night I received a text message from her. The text message was like nothing had happened in the past few weeks - it was as if she had amnesia or she fell on her head or something. I was like - what the hell???

She was like asking how I am doing, am i busy, she haven't heard from me for quite some time, she heard from my Mom that I went to see my Mom on my way back from Port Dickson attending a training, how she have this souvenir from US that she haven't given to me, bla, bla, bla ... Again, what the hell?

She acted as if she & her sons did not call me names ( namely dog,frog,mosquitoes among other monstority that they could come up with ) for the last few weeks following the terrible horror on facebook. She was the one who called me 'orang yg busuk hati, tak boleh tgk org lain berbaik baik', 'nyamuk yg bising kat rumah org yg kalu spray tak jalan, patut dipijak sampai mati, kalau tak mati jugak-pinjam kapak Auntie Elly - kapak sampai mati'. Her sons were the ones saying that 'my ass, katak bawah tempurung', 'perangai sendiri macam anjing, ada hati nak sound org lain', among other things that I wish I can tattoo them on their heads.

And now, this 'as-if-nothing-had-happened' attitude ... Sorry, talk to the hand ... I have better things to do than to 'entertain' you. And what, you thought that by texting me & 'enticing' me with the souvenir from US, I could just forget & forgive all those nasty things you did & said to me? Again, sorry - talk to the hand.

Some people ... I wonder ... what goes in their head .. or heads?

a chat on life ...

i had the pleasure of chatting with arshad today ... about life in general ...he came to sit for his quiz ( short semester ), i texted him to ask abt simba ... then he came to my desk & had a lengthy chat about the ups & downs of life, the humour, the horror and all those in betweens ...

i told him about the sad fact that as we grow older, we will eventually become wiser but we will wish that we could have that wisdom when we were young ... stuffs like that ...

will keep this one short ...

negative aura all around me :(

For the past few days ( 2 weeks give & take ) , I have been surrounded by negative auras - started with the 3 days diarhoea, then the night when mizi ran over a cat while we were in the car travelling to nurul's house, the death of Leo ( a kitten my husband rescued from the LRT ) + followed by this irritating fever / cough / headache. Argghh ... I felt like I need to cleanse the aura - somehow ... I have no ideas how ... but it is clear, I need to do something.

Pray for me ...

solitude ...

I am currently at home, having diarhoea for the past 2 days ... must have been those crabs i ate at this fancy restaurant for mizi's birthday celebration ... the crab was watery, the flesh has liquidified ... but hey, it was a birthday celebration in which his fiance did her best to please everyone ... i salute her for trying so hard :)

solitude is a bliss, i woke up at 12.07 p.m yesterday ... it was bloody tiring - running to the toilet ( literally ) for more than 5 times in a duration of less than 10 hours ok ... today, i woke up early in my best effort to go to work but the little devil had its own plan ... the marathon started again, i had been to the toilet for 4 times today ( now it is 1.50 p.m ) ... there goes another day ...

so here i am at home ... in solitude.

the rest of the story for 2nd entry - no mood now. the only thing that i am concerned now is the state of my colon ... oooppps got to go.

the reason behind it all ...

why do i blog ( again ) ...

well, let us put it this way ... in real life, i am often mistaken for someone else who i am not ... my friends,colleagues and students ( who, mostly, will become my friends/my family - god-daughter, god-son, pet-sis, pet-bro - u name it, they are on the list ) understand & accepted me better than my own flesh & blood namely my sister.

she had hated me since the day i came into this world,that was a long time ago by the way ... later when i was in the secondary school, she told me the reason. she said that she was hoping for a baby brother, not a baby sister. she wanted to be the only girl in the siblings - my brother being the eldest. she wanted to be the main attraction - so called ... so that my parents would pamper her as she would be the only girl ... BUT, God had other plans for her .. too bad ...

she used to tell me that i was adopted ... i was not a part of the family, that was why I am not as fair as her, etc ... she blackmailed me, she manipulated me, she pinched me & stuffs ...

during her internship in sarawak, my mom & i accompanied her there ... my mom was worried if she were to be there alone ... plus, i did quite well in my exam ( penilaian darjah lima at that time ), so it was like a reward for me as well ... we hunted for houses to be rented, we took the bus, we went to stay with strangers while searching for houses, for her ... then, we found the house and being her, before she went to work in the morning, she gave me a verbal list of things to do around the house such as sweeping, cleaning,etc ... when she got home in the evening, she practically run her fingers on the floor, stairs & furniture to see if there was any dust on it ... OMG, i was turned into the maid - all those while i thought this is my reward for performing well in my exam :( ... one of the episodes of so many other sad events ...

then, after she completed her diploma, she got married & left the house ... she followed her husband who was then working in USA ... while i was in a boarding school, she wrote to me - a few pages of letters - some kind of 'bonding' with me, trying to explain the things she did to me - about wishing for a younger brother & stuff ... when she came back, things were better between us ... i thought ... well, the past is the past, look forward to the future ... later in life, she got her wishes - in a rather ironic way, she got four boys as sons ... no daughter at all ... good for her as now she can live her dreams ... me & her, life goes on ... so the past was put way behind us ...

but recently, things change for the worse ...or perhaps the better ... it's all God's plan, so we'll see ...

1st entry - always the sincerest :)

*deep breath* ... my 1st entry ...
i decided to create a new blog for myself where there is no rules ... i can say what i want, no spelling errors where everything is accepted and so on ... muahahahahaha ( evil laughs )

as the name suggested, this is the place where i let off some steam - anger, frustration, dissatisfaction and do as i please ... muahahahaha ( evil laughs again ) ...

enough said ... i will definetely write in the nearest future ... can't do that now, my husband is here sitting in front of me ... too much distraction ...

see ya ...