Mysterious individual ....

I must say this small person in my tummy is one cheeky individual ... being active like most of the time ( day & night ), during the scan this person sits very still, blocking the doctor's view with his/her backside ... can only see the back of the thigh & the butt ... so, the question remains unanswered ...

Guess we just have to wait then ... hmmm the mystery remains ...

But, in general the baby is doing great ... Everything seems ok, the doctor said most likely I can deliver normally :) The next appointment is on 14 December 2009 - which I have got to go through the glucose test & stuffs. I have got to fast the night before - no food after 12:00 a.m ... Pray for me & the baby ...

Take care Yasmin & Syafiq Afifi :) Thanks for the vote ... eventhough the result is still pending ... hehehe

Boy or Girl?

In two days time, the gender of the baby will be confirmed ... yeay ... 12 November 2009, 4.00 p.m at HUKM Specialist Centre ...

I don't really mind but the father of the child is hoping / praying for a boy ... hehehe ... As long as the baby is healthy and happy, I am ok with that :)

So, folks - cast your vote now ... boy or girl? I will announce the result on Thursday evening then ...

Till then ... have a good life :)

Of being 5 months pregnant :p

Yupp ... I am 5 months pregnant ... heavier, bigger and 'sorer' :p ... The cramps have started, it is a GREAT effort to get up once I am sitting down on the floor or lying on the 'toto' watching tv, more frequent visits to the ladies, yet the good thing is the 'morning sickness' ( in my case 'evening sickness') is almost gone for good ... except yesterday, in the name of an experiment - I tried chicken & it almost come out ... not in a pleasant way ...

Anyway, the baby is getting more active, which according to my Mom, is a good thing. Loves oranges and veggies ever more now ...

Still extremely busy, eventhough TCE 3 classes are done with their class events/projects. Now, I am conducting mock job interviews for TCE 3 and public speaking for TCE 1. Another 2 weeks to go before the final exam. The exam invigilation schedule is not out yet ... as usual, it would be a last minute thingy ... Whatever it is, I am due for another scan at HUKM specialist centre on 12 th November ... Had informed the office, so they better be aware.

Will write soon - hopefully. Till then, have a good life.

August is here ... :)

Have not been updating ... Had a very busy time preparing for classes of TCE3 and TCE1, debate club and of course, adjusting to my new found 'body' & ' appetite' ...

Went to have an 'eat out' session with Along & Sha last Thursday, hehehe baby's first eat out with PakLong & MakLong ... Had a seafood fried rice for main course, cranberry cranberry for drinks ( yupp, that's the name ) and mango with sticky rice for dessert ... Usually, we would be having deep-fried siakap with soya sauce + cili padi but since I cannot even smell fish, it had to be postponed for the time being ... Uwaaa ...

The debate club, on the other hand, is developing / growing / blossoming into a great one. Last weekend, the 2 teams participated in Taylor's Intervarsity Debate Tournament ... They did not win anything, yet the experience itself is a prize in its own way... I am so proud of my 'kids' ...

Had a terrible weekend, starting from Friday when the nausea came back ... Saturday & Sunday spent in despair ... Spinning head, lots and lots of gas and of course, the vomitting ...

Hopefully the coming days would be better ...

Till then ...

Of being misunderstood ...

Been there, done that ... decided not to be bothered by it anymore ... thus a peaceful life I gained. Unfortunately in this world, life is NOT a bed of roses ... It is the survival of the fittest, the weaklings are left to mend for themselves and most would succumb to the 'injuries'.

I am saying this because I see that some people are still in their own 'bubble' thinking that the world evolves around them, and not the other way around. They thought that if they make themselves believed that their world is 'fine' so everything is bright & merry. They are the ones who feel they are better than the rest, if you do not belong to their 'group', you are an outcast ... They would only look your way when they want YOU to do something FOR THEM. You are merely a 'servant' who lives to serve & worship them. They have the rights to scold you, to call you names and to do as they please. They have the rights to hurt you but expect you to still respect them & run to them whenever they call for you. If you don't, you are labelled as ingrates / blasphemy,etc ... It is fine for them to spit on your face, but you cannot even glance a hateful stare to them ... Well, you know what ... there is this saying, 'if you want to destroy my sweater, hold on to the thread, I am walking away' ... That is exactly what I am doing ...

To whom it may concerned - 'you can keep on sending those texts, but I am still ignoring you because you have hurt me too much ... Too much that I don't wish to be part of your life anymore' Anyway, try to decipher this texts - 'T, dgr cerita tak sehat, dah ok ke? Masuk pusrawi? Kalau nak apa2 let me know.' ... NO thanks, I DON'T want anything, especially from you. What do you think of me? Only when I want something, I should let you know? Like you did? Sorry, we may come from the same parents, but I do not share the attributes that you have ... I do not possessed a heart full of evil & manipulative schemes ... I do not know how to act nice in front of people but later stab them at the back ... I say things as they are ... whether you like it or not ...

And please, the last statement I wrote on the facebook before I deleted my account stands, the part where I said 'Have a good life' ... just continue with your life, you would do fine without me in them as you have those who you have chosen over your own siblings to live by ... They would take care of you & your family as I am just a mosquito who makes your life miserable by making irritating noises, or a frog living under a coconut shell who does not know what goes around in the world and the last bit where your son said that I am a dog who is barking - quote ' perangai sendiri macam anjing, ada hati nak sound / tegur orang ' ... So please, have a good life with the people YOU chose to be around you. Just leave me alone, with my own small family & friends who do not judge me. Those people accepted me as I am, unlike you.

Have a good life, PLEASE.

Only a pregnant woman knows how it feels to be pregnant

Yupp, basically I am still 'green' - due to nausea + throwing up every now & then ; and also the expression of still new at being pregnant ... But, I really do appreciate pregnant ladies MORE now ...

Other than the physical + emotional changes that we go through, we also face the heartache of not being able to be in control of our own bodies ... like we are not able to eat our favourite food because suddenly we can no longer tolerate the food, the constant trip to the ladies every now & then, not being able to stand almost any kind of smell, the fatigue, the drowsy spell, and a lot of other things as well. It can be frustrating sometimes as we cannot offer you any rationales for the things we do. It is as if an alien has taken over our bodies ...

I feel guilty whenever I give my husband a hard time ... like when I asked him to buy me 'mee goreng basah' only to discover later that I cannot even swallow it. It used to be something that I like in the past. Then, the fascination with coke & 'ice-cream soda', in the past it is quite difficult to see me drinking carbonated drink as I don't really go for it. Today, the moist chocolate + carrot cake was rejected the moment it tried to settle in my tummy. This Ekhwan Jr / Tatty Jr is one fussy little kid.

The journey to the office in the morning is another challenge that I find tiring. As sometimes, when I was about to sit in an empty seat, out of the blue come this 'kiasu' person that literally push me out of the way. And of course, the smell ... And the noise ...

I just hope that I would be ok soon ... And Jr would be co-operating nicely with me ... Do pray for me :)

8 weeks & counting ...

Yupp it has been 8 weeks now ... I am still feeling queasy but getting used to it already ... I am at work after 2 weeks of misery ...

The class started 8.30 this morning, a TCE 3 class - much to my surprise as I was supposed to teach TCE 1 ( 6 classes ) ... now I have 2 subjects to teach ... uwaaa

Anyway, yesterday went to V Mum at sunway pyramid and bought some pretty maternity dress ... No more ModernMum for me ... Have to start wearing them as the baby bump has started to show ... :p